More on memory, there is a continuous motif occurring throughout the novel. One of pretending/fantasy and one of loss. Ultimately, after all the loss that she has suffered, Kathy’s only remaining fantasy is of seeing Tommy again. Her fantasy is to recover what she has lost but this leads back to the theme of memory. Only in her memory can she recover what’s been lost. As they grow older and lose the innocence of childhood, the fantasies wane, and the memories are all that remain. Kathy is both haunted by her past, her memories, and her future, as are the other organ donors who had wild imaginings of their future careers though their fates were inevitably decided.