Tacos, trees, and leaves

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My first place from home is my parents’ house. They bought it a month after I was born twenty-one years ago. Everything I have ever been and most of everything I am now is traceable in this house. I have a story for every square inch of the floor and every record on my shelf. I grew up there and never called another place home.

I planted the tree in the picture in my front yard with my dad and sister when I was four. I remember it every time the leaves change into these colors in the fall. I know that I can come home at any time and it will smell like my mom’s favorite cinnamon candle in the foyer just like it has for as long as I can remember. I know that I can go to the closet in the hallway and find notches in the door frame to show how much my sister and I grew.

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I’m a Swinger.

13334389_1040305906062802_1882255281_o The year I was born, my grandparents bought their house (which my dad later owned).  We went there every weekend and fairly often throughout the week.  Right down the street from this house there was this little park with this swing set and I’m pretty sure that I spent more time on that swing than I did sleeping.  I actually went enough that I developed calluses on my hands, arms, and legs where the swing would touch me, and at one point the swing seat tore through my jeans and cut my leg (which freaked out my grandmother).  I used to go there and sing or make up stories for hours at a time.  Looking back, I really have no idea why the neighbors didn’t tell my grandparents to lock me up, as I would sing loudly (and horridly) and actually reenact the stories in my head out loud (so I basically yelled at the train for hours on end).  Really though, going to the swing was basically my therapy as a young person.  I was going through some pretty messed up stuff at home, but I could always just be alone and deal with it at the park.  It is one of the things I miss most about my hometown.

Crossing the Line

Ocoee Street After reading Creswell’s chapter, I realize that this is more of a space than a place.  My hope was to get a picture from the middle of the road, but the noon traffic made that an impossibility.  Ocoee Street is a space of movement that defies pausing.  Instead, it is a boundary between two very important places in my life.  It is the movement across this line that lends the road significance.  In the foreground of the photo is a sign for Centenary Ave.  This is my childhood street, the neighborhood I grew up in.  In the background, across the border, is Lee University, where my parents have both worked for over 40 years and where I went to college.  Ocoee Street is the demarcation line between these two places and carries layers of significance for me, my family, and my community.

As a kid, Ocoee Street was literally the boundary line.  I had a lot of freedom and was often allowed to roam with my friends.  But there was one rule: do not cross Ocoee Street.  Of course, as I grew older, I was allowed to cross, but by then it had, for me, come to be a symbol of adulthood.  My freshman year of college, I was determined to move onto campus.  Yes, the dorm I moved to was about three blocks from my parents’ house, but the move across Ocoee Street personally marked my transition into independence and maturity.

For my family, this road also delineates the private from the public.  Centenary Ave. is “home”, while Lee is “work.”  Most people have to drive between work and home; the boundary line between the two is broad and may contain a variety of other significant places.  For my parents, this road is the commute.  It is a distinct line between the public and the private.  I also suspect that this is part of why I was not allowed to cross the road as a child.  I belonged in the private sphere of my parents’ lives and could not just show up at their offices any time I wanted.

Finally, this is a boundary line for my community.  Although Lee University plays a large part in our city’s economy, there is a great deal of tension between Lee and the rest of the town.  You may notice that the top of the street sign in the photo marks Centenary Avenue as part of the Historic District.  As Lee grew, the community became increasingly concerned about demarcating where the university could and could not expand.  The creation of the Historic District was one of many attempts to keep the school at bay.  In this way, the boundary line has caused complications for myself and my family.  As members of the Lee community and the Historic Neighborhood Association, my parents have had to work hard to walk the tight-rope of line between the two places and their separate interests.  When I was in college, people around town would often ask me if I went to Lee.  It seems like an innocent question, but I understood the underlying tensions implicit in their asking.  I would often reply, “Yes, but I’m also from here.”  Sometimes, that answer sufficed.  “I am one of you,” it said.  Sometimes, though, it was returned with a scowl.  To some, it meant “I am a traitor.”

Although Lee continues to expand, it has never crossed Ocoee Street.  It is a complicated victory,though, as the expansion tends then to raze the lower income neighborhoods north of campus instead.  Navigating these various tensions and understanding the meanings of the places that I inhabit and how to modify my behavior crossing over boundary lines has been an intrinsic part of my upbringing.  It also gives meaning to this between space, even it one can’t stop and appreciate it.

Finding my Place on the Trails

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“Go outside.” This was the mantra of my childhood–enforced by regulated television time and inside playtime. My memories of childhood exist in outside spaces: the little woods behind my parents’ house where I would go to catch bugs and collect leaves, the cul-de-sac where I used to play baseball with makeshift bases & oversized gloves, the trees in our front yard that I would climb & hang off the branches. The house I grew up in, the house where my parents still live, has changed–the roads that I roamed with my neighborhood gang have been re-paved & the playhouse that acted as our fortress against imaginary armies sits decaying in the backyard–a skeletal frame of our childhood games. Nonetheless, my love of the outdoors remains & outside places are still significant in my adult life. 

The photograph above captures a moment of my morning hike through the Battlefield trails, which are minutes away from my current home in Marietta. These trails have become places where I can escape my hectic life & its places of obligation & routine: the desk in the corner of my room where I should be writing my thesis, my cubicle at work with its grey, melancholy hues and stacks of unfinished reports, my sink surrounded by dirty dishes that I need to clean. On these trails, I can clear my mind and enjoy the vibrant scenery and serene sounds of nature. While these trails are open to the public, they are personal places to me–spaces where I am alone with myself and my own thoughts.

 

 

Home

My wife and I live in a house just south of Atlanta Station. It’s in a neighborhood called Home Park. We’ve been here for almost three years. The street stays pretty quiet. Although some use it as a cut-through, traffic is typically moderate. Cars line the street, causing some congestion—some cars have to pull to the side to allow others to pass. House all around us are set up as roommate situations—Georgia Tech students and young professionals. We live in and around so much liveliness but have had a calm and enjoyable experience.

My wife loves to decorate, and I let her take the reigns on these endeavors. That’s a good thing, because our home is beautiful. A typical night you might find us staying in, cooking dinner, and watching something relaxing on TV (for her—some show about house renovations, for me—probably baseball). Other nights, we might go out for dinner and come back early to our home. Although we feel so comfortable here, it’s nice to get out to the nearby restaurants.

I love to sit on our front porch. From here, I can hear neighbors watching games or having small parties—laughing and cheering and talking. I watch the passersby drive past our home, often too fast, and normally give a small gesture—a nod or wave. Being outside on the porch at night is one of my favorite times. It allows me to relax and recharge and breath in the city that we live in, around, and under. I can look up and see buildings touching the sky—Wells Fargo, office buildings. I can look to the south and see the neons of the Coca-Cola factory and to the north and see the neons of the movie theatre at Atlantic Station.

We’ve loved being here, in this house, for the past three years. It has been meaningful for my wife and me. We have celebrated two wedding anniversaries, one graduation from a master’s program, two acceptances into other graduate programs, new jobs, and new friends in this house. Soon, we will have to move on. Our home has been put on the real estate market to be sold by our landlord. Next month, we will move. We will begin to build the same feeling of home in another rental property not far away. With time, we will feel a similar calm, ease, and peace that we’ve felt here.

Personal Place

I consider myself lucky to have lived in the same house throughout my childhood into my young adulthood. I have many friends who were shuffled from place to place, whether to a different house within the city, or entirely different states or countries. This wall represents a map of my family’s growth over the years, not just in height but also time. Friends would come over and want to find a place amongst the notches on the wall. Pets were forced to stand on hind legs so we could see how they measured up from puppies to dogs. In the end, this wall has become a representation of the many loved one’s I’ve had in my life that have all come into my home and literally become a part of it.

The wall permanently captures places in time that would otherwise be forgotten. It portrays a time when I wanted to be taller than my best friend and we would constantly measure each other to find who was growing at a swifter rate. It marks the height of my older sister’s friends who always seemed so tall, but later in life I surpassed in the markings on the wall.

This wall is a very little physical part of my house, but it is a big part of my family and very nostalgic to all of us. A place becomes a home when it accumulates memories that mean something to you. For me, this wall emulates a place where I grew up from an innocent child into a young woman. There is no other space in the world that represents these stages of my life and I am very happy to have it.

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