The deadline for turning essay one has come, and I’m feeling nervous. Surprisingly the only time I felt this way was when I turned in my first essay in English1101. After doing a good job on the first paper, I was a bit more confident in my writing skills. English isn’t one of my favorite subjects because I know that I’m not a good writer, let alone a great writer. I don’t feel confident in my writing and my vocabulary because English isn’t my first language. The language barrier I encounter is often a challenge in my writing, which prevents me from confidently writing a paper. In high school, I was always intrigued by other people’s writing and wondered how they wrote such phenomenal essays. Once I entered college and enrolled in English1101, I knew that I had to tackle and overcome my fear of not writing fantastic papers or even good ones for that matter. I struggled with my first paper and ended up feeling like it was not worth being read. I ended up asking my older sister to proofread it for me. She ended up making a lot of changes at a cost, doing her chores for her. She forced me to realize that my paper wasn’t good and made me realize that I shouldn’t write how I speak. She provided me the paper I wrote and the one she changed.  The two essays were helpful because I was able to see what I was doing wrong.

After turning in the paper and getting a good grade, I became aware of the fact that she can’t always proofread my papers for me. I knew that I would have to overcome the challenges I encountered and write the next one all on my own. She told me that speaking English as a second language shouldn’t be an excuse for not putting in the effort to write a paper confidently. Many writers end up publishing award-winning novels, even though they speak English as a second language. In the end, I wrote all of my papers and got help from excellent tutors, who over time taught me how to proofread my essays. Even though writing essays may be hard, it shouldn’t prevent me from doing my best. This obstacle shouldn’t be a barrier for me in writing; it should be a motivation because it allows me to write from a different perspective.

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