Reflection Journal #4

When thinking about the performing stage in relevance to the LEAD with Honors cohort, I feel that because of the way the group is structured and that we are the first ones to actually participate in this program, we will mostly be stuck in the forming, storming, and norming phases. We are already in the second year of the four year program, and I feel as if we are trying to establish ourselves as a cohort mostly, which is taking up most of our time in the forming stage. Since we will have cohorts of the LEAD with Honors program that follows us, we are basically the ‘forming’ and ‘norming’ cohort. By the time we are finished doing all of this, we will probably see other cohorts that follow us do most of the ‘performing’.

The way our LEAD with Honors course schedule is set up is that we take the one hour class in the spring of our freshman year, a three hour course in the fall of our sophomore year, a three hour seminar course and a three hour internship in our junior year, a three hour capstone research seminar and a three hour capstone writing seminar in our senior year. Now let me put this into perspective for you. Since this is a four year program for advanced honors students, this program requires us, as students, to stay for four years. When choosing the cohort members, most of them are likely to have many AP, IB, and dual enrollment credits. For example, I came in with 9 credits and then gained 6 more over the summer, so I am a semester ahead of the average sophomore, and will be a junior by the end of this semester.

Now, with that in mind, think about the way the cohort is structured. In the freshman seminar class, we barely knew each other. Then, when this course comes along, we saw a drop in membership from 30 members to 24 members. I know for a fact that one of my friends dropped due to the way the structure is in requiring us to stay for four years, and also because of the fact that she plans on transferring. Membership retention is a big problem for us already. We already saw a 20% decrease in members. My other thought goes back to when we were discussing about the rewards of this cohort, and what it can offer us. Most said that the internship is the biggest reward. Since the internship is in our junior year, how many do you think we would see drop this cohort by the time that finishes? I feel that membership retention is our biggest problem facing the cohort today, and since we are so stuck in the forming and storming phase, it causes us to see this decline. The information that the book outlined about the rarity of the performance phase did not surprise me one bit.

As you know, I am a pessimist when it comes to this cohort, but only because I want to keep a rational mind when thinking about the development of the ‘first class’ to participate in this program. It isn’t to mean any harm. I know that we are free to decide what we want to get out of this cohort, but to actually align with the performance stage of group development, this idea of the ‘LEAD with Honors cohort’ should have had more time with development, BEFORE letting members join it, because even though it is a four year journey and we are setting a name for ourselves, I just feel like it was too rushed in the process of planning what the overall goal and mission of the cohort is. This is only my opinion though, as I know some other members of the cohort love to take action and love the way it is set up currently, however, I think we can all agree that the structure and the way the cohort concept was drawn up is a tad underwhelming. This, in turn, will assist us in NEVER reaching the performance stage, and we probably will not see the performance stage in action of the LEAD with Honors cohort for years to come.

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Reflection Journal #3

During my college experience at Georgia State University and with the Honors College, I have experienced many engagements with downward social comparison. Even though it may sound arrogant; because I am with the Honors College, it is a natural comparison process with my friends. The majority of my friends are not with the Honors College, so when I tell them about the great accomplishments that I am achieving with it, such as my UAP job, my participation with LEAD with Honors, and a variety of other social events, I feel like I am more involved than that of my non-Honors College counterparts. For example, my roommate last year was not in the Honors College, but I was. We were taking the same class, which was POLS 1101, except my class was an Honors class and his was just a regular class. When we compared our syllabi, my course seemed less stressful even though the course only had two tests that determined your entire grade. By the way, I made an A in the class. Besides this, I didn’t seem all that stressed because I already knew how Honors courses worked compared to regular courses, and that I was going to do well. This boosted my entire self esteem level and made me feel good about my participation with the Honors College. I also felt bad for my roommate who had to struggle with his POLS 1101 course, to the point where he was not learning the material as well, and just became frustrated with the topic; and was very anti-political science. While he saw me performing well in my American Government course and he was struggling, he made an upward social comparison, which did lower his self-esteem levels a bit, but he took the initiative to ask me for help and strove to do better in the course.

At this point in the semester, the applications for the Honors College had gone out for potential applicants, and my roommate ended up applying. He told me that he wanted to be a part of it because of all the opportunities I was being offered; as well as wanting to receive that quality education where he would actually learn something instead of just studying for tests the day before the exam. I am glad that he made the upward social comparison to how I was doing since it boosted my confidence levels, as well as painted him a picture of what he wanted to make himself known for. When the results came back, we celebrated as he was eventually accepted into the Honors College! Even though we are not roommates now, I wanted to wish him the best of luck with all his endeavors and am glad that he saw an image in me and strove to perform better in school, as well as becoming more involved by becoming employed and serving his community with various civic engagement opportunities.

As for our group project and how our selection process is going, we are hoping to each bring a topic on Friday during class so we can discuss what we want to do. We are just kind of going with the flow as of right now, and we will have a confirmed decision (hopefully) by this coming Friday. I had the idea of correlating studies between children in the relation to college students, we just don’t know what we want to have our topic as. All we know right now is that we want to include children in our project.